It's there. I know it is.
Because when I look at you, I can feel it.
-Finding Nemo

When we first met, I didn't want to get involved with anyone. I didn't have the time or the energy, and I wasn't sure I was ready for it. But you were so good to me, and I got swept up in that, and little by little I found myself falling in love with you.
( The Rescue by Nicholas Sparks )

  

              

Striving for excellence motivates you;
striving for perfection is demoralizing. 
  - Harriet Braiker

            

             

   Les amants du Marais

(I carry your heart with me)

           

"And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love."
Corinthians 13:13

Self Portraits:
Intitial thought is a portrait of yourself.
Deeper thought:
Every picture you take of anything is an expression of your self.
Jump_4jesus






Him: do you know what i was doing most of yesterday in the car?
Her: hmm?
Him: listening to our songs and thinking of you.
Jump_4jesus


when I'm awake I think of you.
When I'm asleep, I'm dreaming of being with you.
I couldn't get away from you even if I wanted to.
Jump_4jesus

 Sometimes i just wonder if its possible to be cold
 when I'm near your warm smile and soul.
Jump_4jesus

 

Please be careful.
I can't afford to lose you.
Jump_4jesus

& it’s the way, that the little things you tell me
make me forget how bad my day was.

The days need to hurry up so I can be near you & hold onto you.

Jump_4jesus

Her: The world is so uninspired.

Him: We need to inspire them.

Jump_4jesus

I miss him.

If it wasn't for you, I probably would have crawled out of my skin.

Thank you.

Jump_4jesus

Him: I have a question for you.
Her: Yes?
Him: How come you're so amazing?
Her: I'm not that amazing..
Him: Oh please, you're more amazing than me &
I hear I'm pretty amazing but I don't remember why.
Oh that's why, cause I know you.
Jump_4jesus




I'm only amazing because I know you.
You complete me.
Jump_4jesus

Something about your eyes & smile is so warm & calming.
Seeing you keeps me warmer than sitting next to a fire on a cold winter evening.
Jump_4jesus

Anything sounds inviting.
Pressure building...
All I want is to sit by your side.
Jump_4jesus

I don't know how you know, but you always say the right thing at the right time.
You seem to know what I need.
 Most of all I need you.
Jump_4jesus

Looking into the eyes of young children beams the joyous connection we all have.

Some only lost it with time.

Jump_4jesus

I use to think that I was helping them, because they were disadvantaged.

In reality, I'm the one being helped.

They are truely the ones who shine with the light of Christ.

Jump_4jesus

Pure light beams from your eyes.

Hugs solve any problem.

Sweet little one, never give up your light.

Jump_4jesus

Its so beautiful, I can't help it.
Its almost as beautiful as you.
No, actually its no where close.
Jump_4jesus

Someone who believes in me & loves me for me.
 I may have been so blessed to have found him.
:)
Jump_4jesus

Secret: I despise myself when I become overwhelmed.

Overwhelmed. Uncertain. Keep on striving,

Even when you don't believe in yourself.

Focus on the one higher than yourself

& He will carry you through.

Jump_4jesus

Drifting off to sleep a deep thought knocked on the door,

but it was already to late.

The mind was in the deep stillness of passing time.

Jump_4jesus

him: I smell a phone call
her: Whats it smell like?
him: Pure laughter...

Jump_4jesus

Getting use to her not being around is the hardest thing to face.
Truely, I am happy for her love & new life.
She deserves it & so much more.
No one ever said letting go was ever easy.
It hurts thats she's not there.
Jump_4jesus

I smile because you're my sister.
I laugh because there is nothing you can do about it.

 

Darting from thought to thought.

My head is spinning.

My heart is swelling from the thought of you/

Despite the distance, you're close to me.

& everything you do touches my heart.

Jump_4jesus

Its the way he pokes my with grass stems on our walks,

starts pillow fights when we watch a movie &

waves at strangers in the parking lot. His heart is filled with kindness & compassion.

His ears are ready to listen & his spirit brings peace & tranquility.

He always seems to amaze me.

jump_4jesus

He must have had a map when everyone else didn't,
because he found his way into my heart when no one else could.

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me

 

<< :P

02.
don't dwell on the past. your history can't be erased, but
your future has yet to be written. make the most of what's
going to happen instead of worrying about what you can't
change. don't waste your time being sad, because you're
wasting away moments in which you could be happy.


03.
Over the past year, I've learned so much about love
& life. Even if I could, I would never take back all the
things I've done that brought me here, to this moment.


04.
Sometimes I wondered if I was seeing the same things through my eyes that the rest of the world was seeing through theirs. Maybe there was a glitch in my brain.


05.
..I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him.
+ Twilight

"Sometimes you just cant tell someone how you feel. Not because you don't trust them, and you think they'll think you're weird, but because you can never really find the right words to make them understand. It makes you frustrated. People take things a hundred different ways, and that's why its so hard. But, if what you're trying to say is meant to be said, it will find a way to be understood."

"Her hand," he said. "It fit mine."

I love the way you sigh as you're laughing.
jump_4jesus

If I never met you, my heart would still somehow be connected to you. You are my teacher, encourager, friend & my hearts companion.

jump_4jesus

I wish we could back to that Autumn day

in the field where we laid in the grass & played cards.

jump_4jesus

People ask me why I'm with him? It's kind or hard to explain, but the way we connect & see things, gives me hope. I can be a dork & he still laughs with me and pulls me close.

jump_4jesus

He knows how I get scared in movies, that I get homesick whenever I'm alone.  He sees through my games and ignorance & knows that I'm  uncomfortably intelligent. He knows that I miss him the second he's gone & that I Love life. The fact that he loves me & wants to be with me baffles me.

jump_4jesus

"A hug can turn your day around, it's like an emotional Heimlich.
Someone puts their arms around you, and they give you a squeeze
and all your fear and anxiety comes shooting out of your mouth,
and you can breathe again."
-Pushing Daisies

 

That's what real love amounts to - letting a person be what he really is. Most people love you for who you pretend to be. To keep thier love, you keep pretending - performing. You get to love your pretence. It's true, we're locked in an image - an act.

 

 

If you find somebody you can love, you can't let that get away.
*The Wedding Singer

 

 
"Without even realizing it, you taught me a lot of things. Not only about life, but how it's okay to feel something extraordinary about someone."

The swinging pendulum
back & forth
shame.. to doubt..
her mood was indicative of the times.
jump_4jesus

If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever
you're sad, or unsure, or you lost complete faith, that you'll
try to see yourself through my eyes.
P.S. I Love You

So here I go with all my thoughts I've been saving. So here I go with all my fears weighing on me.
Three months and I'm still sober. Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers. And I don't know, I could crash and burn but maybe.
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me.

The comfort of the depletion.
When it stopped, she felt sick
It wasn't right
but its what made her.. her
jump_4jesus

Drowning in her fears.
It wasn't suppose to be this way.
Little blue bird in my heart,
I'll release you
carry the message.
I need you.
Jump_4jesus
 

 















 




 


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02.
It is not in the stars to hold our
destiny, but in ourselves.
+ Shakespeare

Sorry It's been a while!

Don't be scared, Just Love

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  She became something untouchable. Honestly would he ever reach for her? No, probably not & no one ever would. It's what seperated her, made her different; but its also what burdened her heart the most.
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  Welcome back bubble.
  I hate you.
  
  I'm breaking up with you in my mind
  & you'll never know.
  jump_4jesus
  
  I'm so weak.
  
  Sometimes I want to read everyone like a book.
  But if I was a book, I'd be bear & exposed.
  Let the soul hide beneath its cover.
  jump_4jesus
  
  The hair brushing my face is soft & warm.
  It can soothe my aching body.
  It is the blanket I wish to cover my heart in.
  jump_4jesus
  
  Step on the ignition.
  The faster I can run,
  the better.
  God, I am addicted to running.
  jump_4jesus
  
  What's dysfunctional is how my heart wants his love.
  Jump_4jesus
  
  It's my job to smile & love you.
  Regardless of what I'm feeling.
  Jump_4jesus
  
  My emotions hurt. I'd rather not think about men or babies.
  
  The red on my hands brings release of tears & emotions. It also brings memories.
  Red Hurts.
  jump_4jesus
  
  The truth of the matter is I pray you'll never love me.
  Cause it will hurt if anyone ever got that close to my stained heart.
  jump_4jesus
  
  I can't stand the sight of a young man.
  It makes me hate my emotions.
  jump_4jesus
  
  I fidget to get away.
  Swaying with a smile.
  If I'm happy,
  You'll leave me.
  jump_4jesus
  
  The pain it causes you
  doesn't hurt so much when there
  is an emptiness in your stomach.
  jump_4jesus
  
  You can judge me for how wrong & wicked I am.
  But the only wrong I've done is against myself.
  You're unaffected.
  & I'm just functioning.
  jump_4jesus
  

 You deserve something so much better than my stained heart.

I judge you for your actions & despise them only because I see the same thing in my strangled heart.

I'm in love your heart.

Dysrthmia is my hearts rythem.

jump_4jesus

 You see my weak points & seek to understand them.

I want to hide them from you so you won't know how distorted I am. Yet I want to show you all of it, to prove how much better you deserve.

Darlin, just love me for me.

Jump_4jesus

We're so much alike. You have the inate ability to use my own words meant to console you; & turn it around to make me smile. We're always learning from one another. Jump_4jesus

My mind has has already laced up & running out the door.

But My heart is stuck in rubber cement.

jump_4jesus

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Stuffing gauze down my shirt.
Wont this wound clot?
My eyes are streaming with tears.
Jump_4jesus

I ran away thinking you'd chase me.  

The young get less bolder, the legends get older, but I stay the same.

  
Yet no one deserves this.
You don't deserve my sin.
& I won't stick around for yours.
We've all lost our integrity.
Perhaps its time to go?

Jump_4jesus

How horrible these sins are.
Your lust & my coping.
I starve myself out of vanity & fail from weakness.
Its how I cope. In my mind's eye, its clear. The more pain my stomach experiences, the less you will be able to hurt me. Can't you understand?
How can I understand?
It's only going to feed into you fantasy.
I hate my body.
I despise the corruption.
Jump_4jesus 

“Everything that the Father gives me will come to me,
and I will not reject anyone who comes to me,
For this is the will of my Father,
that everyone who sees the Son and believes in him
may have eternal life,
and I shall raise him on the last day.”

The things you told me,
To hear you speak.
I'm burning slowly,
I'm growing weak.

I'm so much like you
Restless and wreckless
I need a clue
So show me a sign

I'm so much like you
Caught in a moment, coming unglued
In a world so big, it's not easy to choose
Which path to take, which pawn to move
So we'll let go of everything we've ever known

You and I will ride tonight
'Till the past is out of sight
We don't have to look back now
We are knocking down the wall, all for one and one for all
We can stand together
Never gonna look back now

He looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

She smiled in a big way;
the way a girl like that smiles,
when the world is hers.

she's addicted to the song lyrics
that spill her heart out for her.

 

Everything else fades from view
when he walks into the room;
he's kind of amazing that way.



Be an organ donor ;;
Give someone your heart

If you're willing to chase me,
I promise, I’ll run slow

i want a guy who saves my texts
just to look at them when he misses me

 

maybe my heart didn’t really skip  a beat. &&
maybe the twinkle in my eye was just the sun reflecting
weird ;; && maybe that feeling in my stomach was just
not having enough for breakfast. & maybe I just thought it was love



hatred is found in the girl sitting
next  to  you  who just told you
 she liked your hair 



it's no big deal. i've never been
good enough for anyone, anything.

 
 








The best feeling is listening to his heartbeat
and knowing that it's beating for you.






Dreams are always crushing when they don't come true. But it's the simple dreams that are often the most painful because they seem so personal, so reasonable, so attainable. You're always close enough to touch, but never quite close enough to hold, and it's enough to break your heart.
+The Notebook















let's play a game of who's life sucks the most. i'll win.
- grey's anatomy





too often, the thing you want
most is the thing you can`t have.
-grey`s anatomy








































then and now:















^i love this movie <3






















































 



She said-- "I'm afraid I'll fall..."
He whispered-- "I have wings."






You can't buy happiness, but you can buy ice cream. And that's kind of the same thing.

 








 

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